Here we go again…….a surprise awaits.

What have I been doing lately???  A whole lotta catching up!  Why you wonder?  Well….look below.

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Yep…we are pregnant with baby #2 and so far it’s been a pretty bumpy ride.  The past 3 months have been a blur and my nausea was quite a bit worse this time around.  Add anemia in there and it’s a pretty rough mix.  Thank heaven for AMAZING family members who gifted me with alone time so I could rest as much as possible.  Seriously, there were days on end that I did not get out of my pajamas and barely got out of bed.  I have to say though, I am grateful for moments and times such as these because they offer reminders of how unimportant so many things in our daily lives really are.  Your health is truly everything and I am ever so blessed for my health and the health of my family.

I’m entering the 15th week now, the second trimester, and finally starting to feel like myself again….. like I can actually be out in the world and contribute to it.  (Plus, it will be nice to add some more ingredients to my diet other than bananas and bean and cheese burritos. Honestly I think I kept Taco bell in business!)  In a few short weeks we will find out if we are having another girl, or a boy….we’re very excited.  Healthy baby…that’s my Christmas wish….

I have to admit, I am very afraid to have another baby.  It’s not easy.  So tiring, so time consuming and it’s difficult for me to get excited about another little one when I’m so strongly desiring to get back to my creative pursuits and really start painting again.  It’s easier to photograph….doesn’t take the same energy from me.  But painting is really where my heart is and I long to get back there.  So….my goal is to just keep on keeping on and nurture the creative relationships that I have made through the years and to continue making new ones.  Life is a process and I’m learning how to be much more than I ever understood myself to be.  It’s going to be hard, that’s for sure, but Ravenna has enriched my life so much I can’t even think about living without her.  Once I catch up on my sleep, I’m sure I’ll feel this way about baby#2 as well. 🙂

And to friends and family who are finding out about this just now…I’m sorry.  I’ve been wanting to call or send a letter in the post, maybe with the Christmas cards, but I’m not sure I’ll even get around to doing cards this year. So this will have to suffice!  Cheers!!

Wish us blessings and winning the lottery wouldn’t be bad either!  That way we could hire a nanny!